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2:09 PM
That's what they call me now.
NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Is that a good thing?
I suppose so.
And I hope so.
But my new name's GABBY.
Everyone calls me GABBY now.
I am a changed woman.
VERY COOL! ;p
Anyhooooo, I got a weird message from someone in friendster:
ang ganda ganda mo!
hehehe
have a good day!
Uber Weird. What's with that new pic? Eversince I posted it, I kinda like got an average of 10 messages per day. I am not exaggerating things. Sheeesh. Guys must've been blinded my my smile.
PARA NGITI LANG. SOBRA NAMAN SILA. ANO KAYANG MERON DON?
Alden @
8:42 AM
Just woke up from roughly an hour of slumber. Should've been at Jamie's place by now. But my system is keeping me from being there.
I'M SICK.
There's no nicer way to put it.
You might get me wrong here. It's not about being in college that I'm sick of.
Sometimes cold, sometimes hot, plus the rain, mind you. Who wouldn't get sick in that kind of atmosphere?
Anyhooo, you might just be curious about how my schooling was/is.
How's college so far?
Tough, cos all of my classmates, (take note, ALL of THEM) were honor students, either valedictorians or salutatorians of their respective highs. Others were Intarmed candidates and Oblation Scholars, majority of them were from Pisay. Excluding MOI - who failed to graduate with flying colors, who didn't get to study in Pisay, who is neither an intarmed candidate nor an oblation scholar.
This is the lowest of the low. My self esteem has gotten into the pits. But if I were to describe how life in college is...
It's SIMPLY the BEST.
Nothing beats the UP Education. NOTHING.
M Misunderstood I Industrious C Cheerful A Astounding G Glamorous A Altruistic B Brutal R Relaxed I Important E Exhausting L Light
Name Acronym Generator
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Panget daw ang payat? NGUYH! Excuse me, I'm better off without my fats.
Anyhooo, I just got home from Galleria. The three of us - Lissy Garcia, Joyce Bobiles and Yours Truly, went out to see All My Life. I thought we're off to see Shrek 2, but then again, I had to watch All My Life cos they bought the tickets even before I arrived. Talk about three girls who's got their hearts broken watching a romantic flick. Not really broken-hearted, but Micro Bunyi, Lissy's boyfriend, left for the States early this morning. Come to think of it, Ninang Bel and her family left for Guam late this afternoon, while my Tita Leah will be arriving tonight at 9p. Salisi... tsk tsk.
But it's okay. I bought a headband for myself. Nyahahahahaha.
Cos of boredom, we've decided to watch ALL MY LIFE.
Darn, it was nice. And it had a very realistic ending. It's a bit sad, though.
Got totally drunk then.
Was intoxicated.
Cried a lot.
Confessed.
Loved.
And had my heart broken again.
Enough of this bullshit.
I was going over some high school stuff when I saw this familiar envelope. I knew what was going to happen. But that didn't keep me from opening it. You know what was written there? Just some very private letter I'd have to keep from the world, as much as I'd want to brag about it.
And it goes...
Dear Mica,
Sobrang late na nitong retreat letter na to so I am saying sorry. Hmmm, Lil Sis ko simply perfect, and I'd like to thank you for being my Lil Sister. For always being there whenever I need you and for being my bantay. There is so much more I want to say but since maliit lang yung card hindi ko magagawa. Alam mo naman siguro na I admire you so much and that I am so proud of you. About your ball I promise to be there no matter what happens. Kung hindi mo pa ko pinapalitan by that time.
I LOVE YOU LIL SIS!
- Big Bro mo :)
Upon reading that, I found myself in tears. I hardly slept last night. And when I woke up and saw the mirror, a pair of swollen eyes was right in front of me.
Seems like I can't get over my DILEMMA.
NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Something to keep me from getting cold these days...
Something to keep me warm all day...
Something to wear.
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
La lang, share.
`jyz: whhh
`jyz: damnit
`jyz: sheettt tlga
`jyz: onti ln sbra..
`jyz: acoh sbrng onti ltg
`jyz: y 3 nln ung nsa main ng pbase muh
`jyz: mics
`jyz: lamu ba?
`jyz: naalala kita
`jyz: xe mei frnd me..
`jyz: cum laude sha ng up..
`jyz: tas mei guy sha na like ryan un name
`jyz: pero un guy,lmu un?
`jyz: parang pinpaasa ln sha
`jyz: tho mei ngcocourt sa knya..
`jyz: ung c ryan prin un lyk nia..
`jyz: naicip co prehas pla kau
mica: ahahaha..
mica: pero di naman ako cum laude sa UP
mica: sobra ka naman
mica: nyahahaha.. gusto ko un, though
`jyz: nde xe prng tken for granted ln sha
`jyz: xe lm nung guy na hindi sha kaya iwan..
`jyz: shit tlg mga lalake!
`jyz: naicip co ln..
`jyz: dnt u think..
`jyz: u shud stop nah?
`jyz: la lng..
`jyz: naawa naco for you
mica: thanks..
mica: i really think so too..
mica: anyways, he texted u na naman ba?
mica: well.. have u read my blog?
mica: sbe ni da
mica: "kaya ka nya tntake for granted kce lam nya na di mo sha kayang wan.."
`jyz: ha?
`jyz: yup..
`jyz: he txted a quote..
`jyz: dco nirep..
`jyz: nope..
`jyz: y?nu ba meron sa blog muh?
mica: basahin mo un post ko nung 20
`jyz: w888
`jyz: oo nga
`jyz: sbi sau
mica: haaaay..
mica: nakakaasar sha..
mica: naaasar na tlga ako!
mica: sha ang dahilan kng baket lagi ako naddepress
mica: parang ngaun
mica: ano bang gsto nya palitawin
mica: pinamumukha nya saken na ayaw na nya ko sa buhay nya
mica: thru texting u and not texting me
mica: duh
mica: edi wag
mica: di nako paparamdam sa kanya ever
`jyz: ha?
`jyz: ui..
`jyz: d gnun yun..
`jyz: quote ln u tsong
`jyz: hmm..
mica: sbhn nteng wala lang un
`jyz: no offense meant..
`jyz: kaso xe d co lm kung anu real score..
mica: ano?
`jyz: xe cnsaktan kana nia mica..
`jyz: =(
mica: un na nga un e
`jyz: prehas taung cnsaktan ng mga mahal ntin..
mica: kya nga yoko na ipilit nyo ko sa kanya
`jyz: dba ang sbe mu skn never let anyone hurt you w/o your consent?
`jyz: sowi..
`jyz: dco nmn po alm
mica: its ok.. lam ko malinis intentions mo..
mica: pero joyce..
`jyz: hmmm..
mica: our love for them goes hand in hand with that consent
`jyz: im just being honst..
`jyz: what if pakita mu rin na ok ka..
mica: cos we only allow those whom we love to hurt us..
mica: in our case.. we loved THOSE GUYS.. and we do love them until now...
mica: so everything about them affects us.. the concern will always be here..
mica: we get distracted when we hear their names..
mica: we get curious whenever we fnd out tht they're seein someone else
mica: we can't break the link connecting us to them.. love, that is..
`jyz: well,.it's up to us..
`jyz: knowin guys
`jyz: i think thy're hapi na lam nila na di ntin cla iiwan..
`jyz: buhay..
mica: yeah.. and its an egoboost, knowing that they have us - their ladies in waiting..
`jyz: men love being loved..
mica: and men love being waited for
`jyz: well,.. are we not drooling for them..?
mica: we are, sweetie
mica: not so obviously, though
`jyz: wahhh
`jyz: sheetttt
`jyz: ayoco na
`jyz: im sick of this
`jyz: this feeling!
`jyz: lecheng love yan!
mica: me either
mica: dang
mica: boys are cheats and liars
mica: they're such a big disgrace
mica: they will tell you anything to get to second base
mica: ball base ball
mica: then he wants to score
mica: and if you let him all the way..
mica: then you're called a whore
`jyz: ud be called an illicit bitch
`jyz: wahhh
`jyz: damn..
`jyz: why do we hav to fall for those men..
Originally, she was about to go out with Mikoi, her ex.
But then, she asked me instead. Cos a friend told her to bring a KIKAY FRIEND.
Yes, that is MOI.
Gawwwwwwwsh. Her friend was right. It's an ultimate girl flick. With Brad Pitt's ass to kill. Eric Bana's buff body. Orlando Bloom's appeal.
Man, I've been so captivated that I watched TROY twice.
Yeah, I watched it with the INFINITUM (Mandee, Cat, Aiza and Joyce) at Robinson's Galleria. Twas around 4:45 when we entered the moviehouse. So I, again, wasn't able to see the first part.
Dayyyim! Focker...
You know what they told me?
"Text mo na. Wala kang mapapala sa pride mo."
So I did.
Then Funz texted him.
Didn't even care to reply to my message.
But to Funz, he did.
Oh c'mon. Forget it, Mica.
Cut the Crap!
Can't you get it? He doesn't want you in his life anymore. He no longer needs you.
Fuck off, Mica!
Even your closest friend tells you to STOP.
Duh, like don't you know what STOP means? You're smart and for Christ's sake, wake up! Don't BITCH AROUND. STOP HOPING. STOP DREAMING.
mica- lam mo ba sabe sken ni april at funa, itxt ko daw si tope
mica- tnext ko naman
mica- eh sbe k sign na toh
mica- pag di nagrep kklmtan ko na
mica- nagtext ako..
mica- tpos ngtext din si funa..
mica- saken di nagrep!!! KAY FUNA NAGREP!!!
mica- gago tlg un
[[daryL]] oh shit.......
[[daryL]] hai nkuh..
[[daryL]] if i were u ill stop na tlga
[[daryL]] naawa din ako sa srli ko kng ako ikaw
mica- ahaha
mica- ayoko na ren naman eh
mica- hahaha...
mica- kce lam ko di magrrep!
mica- hahaha
mica- ang kulet ni funz eh
[[daryL]] bkt ba di ka na nya nire2plyn?
[[daryL]] he asked for anther chnce dba?
mica- nasakal cgro!!! KCE ARAW ARAW KO TNTEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[[daryL]] hai nkuh
[[daryL]] wag ka mkng dyn
mica- ahaha
[[daryL]] hai nkuh mica kya ka cgro tinatake for grnated ni toffee
[[daryL]] kc lam nya na di mo sya kyng iwan
mica- hahaha
mica- di nga tlga..
Naknampuchah naman, wala nang mas LOSER pa saken.
Alden @
6:19 PM
Yes you heard it right, ISKA.
We may not be the ISTAS, IANS or ITES.
But we are proud ISKAs and ISKOs.
ISKOLAR NG BAYAN.
Attending the orientation has brought out the sense of nationalism in me - knowing that each one of us was alotted a 1M subsidy. Where did they get that money from? The TAXPAYERS. And in that 1M, only 5,951.50 was payed by my parents.
Naknampuchah, mas malaki pa ang allowance ko.
They also taught us the Unibersidad, Hey UP!, Let's go UP!, and other yells from the UP Pep Squad. The drummer was oh-so-cute. *giggles*
Not only that, we were oriented by uber funny and ass kicking people. Absolutely hilarous. Except the fact that they made fun of the BS Bio people - in front of MOI. Palibhasa, orientation ng College of Engineering yun.
But this is why I love UP the most...
MY SCHEDULE.
This is where I belong, and I'm proud of it.
I WILL SURVIVE.
Alden @
6:36 PM
NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
I went to Rustan's to check out their Sale Items. Hmmmm, good thing it's until the 30th. So guys, pray that I may be granted speedy recovery.
But that's not it. I still managed to go to Shopwise to buy some goodies and sweets.
Good ol' mommy yo couldn't resist her sick baby daughter's wishes. *evil grin*
Whatta Good Day...
But I got an instant Karma when I found out I'll remain like this for the entire week or so. Leaving me with a lump on each jaw. Sheeesh.
JINXED...
Blame it to my MUMPS.
You heard it right.
I even failed to attend the UP College Briefing scheduled yesterday.
/me has a big lump on her right jaw
YM with gelo:
gelo_vil22: still sick? tsktsk
mica_gabriel: yup
mica_gabriel: ang saket kaya!!!
mica_gabriel: ano gnawa nyo sa college briefing?
gelo_vil22: naggames.. hehe
gelo_vil22: students rin kc nagayos ng briefing sa colleg of econ eh...
mica_gabriel: ahh..
gelo_vil22: it depends on ur college
mica_gabriel: nakakaasar..
mica_gabriel: feeling ko ang dami kong namiss
gelo_vil22: feeling ko boring ung briefing nyo eh coz u hav a serious course compared to myn
gelo_vil22: =)
Hmmm.. Thanks to my Mumps, I had to skip those boring college briefings.. NYAHAHAHAHAHA!
For more gig pics, click here.
My mom and I went out, though. So today wasn't that bad at all. Had the Medical-Physical-Dental Examination - a UP prerequisite, that is, at Medispecialists Center. Feasted on Shakey's again. Can't get enough of that Chicken N' Pasta. Went back to get the results. Had our dessert at Ice Monster. *yummy* Headed to Prime Lab-Ash Creek then to Prime Lab-Main to have my chest X-rayed. Went to Virra Mall to purchase pirated DVDs. You know, I get really really bored at home. DVDs keep me up all night. Bought Aqua Blue Sneakers at Shubizz-Greenhills. Gawwwsh, they're like so cheap. Too bad, the pink one ran out of stock. Anyways, I think I found the perfect school bag for me. Too bad mommah didn't approve of it. You know why? Cos it's pink, elle-ish, and predominantly cos it's got Hello Kitty prints all over. Talk about Elle Woods/Mica Gabriel going to Harvard/UP.
NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
On second thought, that's not bad at all. What's wrong with liking PINK?
/me has two new pairs of shoes for the school year
/me is overjoyed
/me loves her mommah so much cos she bought all of those stuff for her
And about last night...
I absolutely had a BLAST with my bombshell sissies, namely, Midori, Pixie, Dolly and Bubbly... =) We also were with Mhe Sunga, Alds Baleva, JP Kabuhat and Dan Du.
Click here to view photos.
The Bombshells Bonding Session definitely rocks!
Midori texts her hunny.
Pixie texts her prince.
Dolly texts her drummer.
Heck, 'bout me? nuh-uh...
Tita Gianna, Cat's mom, told me this:
"Don't text him na. You're just his standby girl."
It hurts to know she's right. But there's no nicer way to put it.
I am his Stand-by Girl...
And the other reason...
Hmmm, secret...
=)
Happy, shalalala. It's so nice to be happy, shalalala.
I've just finished programming the Ultimate Bombshell Quiz, entitled:
Which BOMBSHELL Are You?
I'm so productive. I think it's too much. Cos this quiz didn't allow me to sleep. Anyways, hope you enjoyed it, sissies. See you after elections... =)
Dolce & Gabanna: Classy with an edge.
You take traditional ideas and give them a kick in the ass!
Always stylish and appropriate for everywhere
What fashion designer fits you
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Drama Queen (That Girl)
by Lindsay Lohan
There was a girl I knew
Who always wanted to
Be the one to stand out from the crowd
Always believed that she
Was gonna live her dreams
That what went down was gonna come around
For all the doubters, non-believers
The cynical that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize...
[Chorus]
That girl was a one-time teenage drama queen
A hacked-up everyday wannabe
But she'll have changed her destiny
Now she's a somebody
That girl was a wild child, dream of where she'll find herself
'Cuz she believes in nothing else
And was a don't look back and you won't believe
That girl was me!
Armed with an attitude
That she knows how to use
She's gonna get there any way she can
Now she knows what she wants
No one's gonna stop her
Nothings ever gonna hold her back
For all the doubters, non-believers
The cynical that once were dreamers
One of these days you'll know that you were wrong
Who would know..?
[Chorus]
Life is a work of art
You gotta paint it colorful
You can make it anything you want
Don't ever stick to any rules
You don't need a high IQ
To succeed in what you do
You just gotta have no doubt
Just believe in yourself
Doubters, non-believers
Once were her dreamers
One of these days you'll open up your eyes
And you'll realize...
Can't help but reminisce.
To all the moms in the world, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!
I can't believe I cancelled my trip to Bulacan, just to modify this blog.
Well, I guess it's worth it. Except the fact that I hafta follow mah mommah, to hand her mah present, early this morning.
Whew. Kundi lang Mothers Day. Kundi ko lang mahal si Mommy... =)
I've been her pain in the neck all these years. Ironically, I also and still am her source of happiness, and pride. I know I've hurt her in a thousand and one ways. I may be the worse daughter in the whole world, but I know it ain't matters to her. After all, I'm the flesh of her flesh, blood of her blood. We've only got each other. And there's no way I could possibly leave my mom. Before anything or anyone else, it's her I'd like to share my successes with. But that's not enough, for someone who has been with me all this time, and will never be enough. So Mom, I Love You. You may not feel my love at all times, but I'm telling you, there never was a second I stopped doing so. You're all I have now.
I did this all by myself.
NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Was in front of my laptop the entire day. Talk about eye problems.
Depression + Heartache + Boredom = BLOG MAKEOVER
Good thing I came up with something positive out of all the bad vibes in my system.
BRAVO, Mica... =)
Mom hasta cast a vote.
I wonder who'll get the seat to presidency.
Sounds like GMA for me.
Anyhoo, I've read the Boy Crazy mag, courtesy of Cat Maniego.
Gawwwwwwd. I wish I read that even before I met him.
Says there:
IN MATTERS OF HEART, girls often get blamed for analyzing every relationship issue to the nth degree. If a girl likes a guy, and he talks to her, she'll spend the next two days trying to decide whether that twitch in his eye was him offering a flirty wink or if it was just a twitch. Although we love trying to figure guys out, it can get tiresome when it's all a guessing game.
-Boy Crazy! Magazine
That is so true. Well maybe cos overdoing things can create dismay and disappointment. For instance, expecting the shape of things to come makes us assumptive enough not to enjoy whatever is in store for us in the future. Worrying too much lessens our time to enjoy and live the present moment. Needless to say, we take for granted the essential things from which we find true refuge and bliss. We may not notice their importance now, but when will we? If they're gone? Think again...
Idealism isn't bad when it's not overdone. Maybe I think too much, and dream too much. Having a clear picture of the relationship I want is as good as much as it is bad. Good cos I know what I want; bad, cos it eventually becomes my basis in trying to find the perfect guy for me, which is wrong. Sad to say, those who expect, most of the time, are the ones who get disappointed. And I'm one of them.
Ergo, I thought of not thinking as the best way to relish what I have right now. Being brainy-slash-paranoid-slash-obsessed has its own disadvantages. I used to envy people who are not uber smart, but managed to maintain and keep a relationship going strong. I even thought of pretending to be an idiot, which is wrong and so not me. Oh well, maybe guys get intimidated by domineering girls - girls like MOI. FOCKER!
I'm good at being bad.
Oh c'mon...
I give up.
And I ain't lookin for love.
Not anymore.
Imma pursue a career in medicine.
Graduate with satisfactory grades.
Get a decent job, out of the country most prolly.
I'll never be good enough for you, Toffee.
So I'm letting go.
You've just wasted your second chance.
I swear not to enter a relationship in my entire college life.
Write that down.
I was over reacting.
Okay, okay, you're forgiven. *you never said sorry, though*
'Tis more than enough for me :
If prtways cum den uL hav 2 say "gudbye!" iL hold ur arms tyt sO u cnt gO evn if u say "iL c u sOOn" i'L s!t bsyd u & whspr.. "ayaw!gs2 kO d2 k lng, pwde"
*blushes*
More than enough to make my day. Kahit quote lang yan.
Fine.
I understand.
And I need not reply.
SORRY LANG KUNG STORBO AKO, I'LL NEVER MAKE PARAMDAM TO YOU, EVER AGAIN.
Teka, iyak muna ako.
Woke up at 12a today. For the reason that Daryl and I had a phone marathon last night, which ended at around 3a.
Sheeeeesh. I had fun! Really...
Being the first one to greet Daryl on her birthday, I've witnessed a lot of people texting her and saying "Sana ako una nagreet sayo." NYAHAHAHAHA! Sorry guys, the first one was yours truly.
So much for that... Lemmie update you bout what happened yesterday...
Fetched Daryl, the celebrant.
Met up with Ishi, and 2 Xavierians at Auntie Anne's.
Watched Starsky and Hutch. The movie was okay. Yeah, I know that's subtle.
Pigged out on Chocolate Toffee served at Auntie Anne's. Twas yummy! :P
JP Kabuhat came along, together with Dan Du.
All of us went to Ice Monster. I had Corn Ice. Daryl's treat again.
Gosh. Had a laugh trip with Dan and Jeyps. Ang corneeeeh na, natatawa pa ren ako.
Top 5 Hirits
JP : Siguro kaya ka nacocorneehan dahil kumakain ka ng Corn Ice.
JP: Alam mo, may mas malala pa sa Ice Monster... ICE MONSTEST!
Dan: Pano kaya si Jaker noh? Meron palang tatalo sa kanya... si JAKEST!
JP: Pero mahirap jan dalawa sila eh. Jaker`bot. Da bot op dem.
Mica and Da : Ang labo niyo!
Dan: Inom ka ng "STRONG ICE" para luminaw. (Strong eyes pala yun.)
Dan and Jeyps : Tara pare, Holiday Inn tayo.
Mica : Ano nga pala full name mo?
JP : John Paul.
Mica : Pede ba kitang tawaging PAPA? Papa Juan Pablo Ikatlo.
Da : Hahahahahaha!
JP : Call me anything you like :P
I couldn't help but laugh at them. Gawwwwwwwwd. Corneeh, but really really funny. NYAHAHAHAHA. You rock, Dan and Jeyps.
Oh and after the IM. We went to Holiday Inn. Then played billiards at Skybowl.
First Set: Two teams tied up.
Team 1-Mica and Daryl
Team 2-Dan and JP
Second Set: Team 1 won by 3-0.
Team 1-Mica and Dan
Team 2-Daryl and JP
Gawwwwwwwwwwd. Dan's a Billiard Expert. He finished all the billiard balls up, except the numbers 13 and 11, which were ehem, by MOI. Oh and Daryl's great too. Twas sort of a birthday luck. :P Nguyh!
JP sang YOUR LOVE. Due to insistent bombshell demand.
Geeeeeeeez. Hearing JP's version of the song instantly gave me chills. Reminds me of someone, whom I dedicate the song to.
Speaking of, di pa sha nagparamdam yesterday. And until now... What's gotten into him?
The gang left at around 9p, outnumbering us down to 2. So Daryl and I decided to do something worthwhile. What do you think? Malamang, pigging out. We feasted on McDonalds' Ice Cream. Then headed off to Starbucks, leaving us no choice cos all of the stores were closed by then. I ate Cheetos. *yummy*
Talk about girl talk, eh? Twas 10:30p when we decided to score a homerun.
I'd like to thank Daryl, the birthday girl, for sponsoring the trip. Gosh, I really was penniless then. She financed the whole thing. *yaaaaay*
Hit the homebase at 11p. Twas one helluva day, but it didn't end there.
Listened to JP's CD-slash-surprise-birthday-gift for Daryl, via phone patch.
Awwwwwwwwww...... really really really sweet. Like TOTALLY!
Papa Jeyps, I FEEL you! :)
Slept at 3a. *whew*
Happy Birthday, Daryl Ann Tarnate! 4th of May, 2004.
Tenkshoooooooh! Halabshooooh! Hamishoooooh! =)
I wish you HAPPINESS.
Ishi's treat.
Movie Marathon.
Galle.
2pm.
Hafta fetch Daryl in a while.
Penniless, but insists on going, cos I dowanna waste my day.
Going to pig out, sooner or later.
Gaining LBS...
Geeeeez. Mom bought some IC's for me. Cool! Has a lot of calories, though.
Got my 1st ever educational plan check. Whew. Good thing I'm going to UP. Givin me a lot more benefits, not to mention, excess shopping money.
Happy. Yaaaaay. Missin HIM.
Do I hafta explain why it turned out to be ordinary and boring? Naaaaaah...
Confusing, may be a bit interesting.
I suddenly doubted my feelings for him. Si Dan Du kase eh. His insight on friendship, it being the strongest foundation of a relationship, made me wonder. I really think we missed that, didn't we? I've contemplated on this since then. I can't let it get out of my system. Man, even when I was hearing the Sermon, when I was buying our groceries, and til now while I'm doin this post.
Geeeeeeeezzz...
Did we really miss out?
Pfffffffffffffft.
I want to know him better. (Inspired by the recent Sermon on "Knowing thy self.") Father : Kilala mo dapat yung taong mahal mo. The only thing I'm sure of right now, is that "I love him, I really do. Dayyyim!" Hmmm, sounds familiar, eh? Actually, I'm not sure about that either.
What if this second time and second chance we have wouldn't work out? BIG RISK. But I did take it, and I'm glad I did. Sheeeesh.
/me contemplates again, and realized this :
All I know, is that life's a whole lot better knowing he's there. He's all I have right now. And I dare not lose nor hurt him again. Not this time.
Haaaaaaaaay. Love ko nga sha talaga...
I now am relieved.
Yes, Ladies and Gentlemen, I got what I really wanted.
*drumrolls*
A New Pair of Lacoste Sneakers.
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
And I have to bear with it for the whole School Year. Nguyh! But I still am very very happy. Cos at first, I wanted to buy either a new pair of jeans, or a school bag. Then, I thought of buying the Lacoste Sneakers - one of my summer goals. Nyahahahaha! So cute! The linings were colored red. MAROON RED. Nyahahahaha!
Now, this is something. I'm a MAROON.
Gawwwwwwd...
Point of origin was G4. Chose between Nike and Lacoste. Ended up wanting Lacoste. Had to pass by The Landmark, to get to Greenbelt. Checked Lacoste-Greenbelt if they still have the style I want. Transferred to The Podium to widen my choices. Bought the Sneakers. Nyahahaha. Too bad I bought my 2nd choice. No more MUSE of my size. Last stop was at SM Megamall. Sale eh. But I went there to check if Lacoste has a smaller size of MUSE. Nagbabakasakali lang. Ran home, penniless.
Psshhhhhht, online ka daw kanina? Sayang di kita naabutan.
I really thought getting a tan was a good idea. I loved the beach so much, most especially the sun. I was too busy to notice how blackenese I've become. Pota naman, ang itim ko na! Shit talaga. I ran home early today. Not because of boredom, but because of depression! Yeah. I really am so depressed right now. I want my old complexion back... NOW!!!
And now, I swear not to go out for the whole weekend! I'm goin to stay at home... and claim my fair skin back!
Wanna see my pics?
BEFORE
TAN LINE
REDDISH
NIGGER *aaaaaaaack*
Grabe. Then I texted him to tell him I got pissed cos of my unexpected darkness. He said : "Kaw kasi paaraw ka ng paaraw eh." Gawwwwwd. How should I know? My complexion's normal when I was in Bora. Din't know it's otherwise here in Manila. Then, I sought for my bestfriend, Pat Velasquez's help. He said : "Anak ng! Para yun lang!". Sucks, big time! That's not it yet. My dad arrived, and gave me my allowance. He said : "Anak anong nangyari sayo???".
Why are we in such a complexion-discriminating world???
Oh and I was in Galle a while ago. I've seen most of my friends. The ateneans, xavierians and lasallians. Click here to view photos.
2. Nick: Mica
3. Middle Name: Mendoza
4. Hair: Black
5. Eyes: Dark Brown
6. Skin Color: Tan, cos it's summer
7. Location: Quezon City
8. Birthday: 21st of September, 1987
9. Zodiac: Virgo
10. Status: Single, but definitely in love :D
Favorites
11. Animals: Husky, Meluh's dog
12. Sport: Cheerdancing? Former volleyball varsity player (grade school).
13. Color: in Clothes, White and Black; but generally, it's Blue.
14. Song: Forgetful Lucy - Adam Sandler
15. Band/Singer: Duncan Sheik, Stephen Speaks
16. Quote: "Living without loving is not living at all."
17. Flower: White Rose
18. Scent: Armani, Dolce and Gabbana and Carolina Herrera
19. Movies: 50 First Dates, What a Girl Wants, Chasing Liberty, Legally Blonde
20. Holiday: Christmas Break
22. Element: Fire
23. Books: Why Men Love Bitches
24. Do you wear makeup?: Occasionally
25. Do you pluck yr eyebrows: Yes.
26. Do you look for personality or looks: Personality
27. Perfect boy: Someone like Toffee
28. How many rings before you answer the phone: One
29. Future Career plans: Finish Med School, then get married.
30. Do you sleep with stuffies?: Yes, can't do without them.
31. Do you want kids: Of course!
32. Are you popular: Do I have to?
33. Are you pretty: I don't think I am.
34. Do you get along with your family?: Sort of.
35. Do you have any piercings or tattoos?: Yes, one on the left and two on the right ear.
Do you like...
37. Giving hugs?: Definitely! It's the sweetest thing.
38. Taking walks in the rain: That'd be cool.
39. The mall?: Absolutely yes!
40. Go on stage? When required to, yes.
41. Drink: When I'm down in the dumps, and during parties.
42. Smoke: No, my lungs are weak.
43. Drugs: That's a big No-No!
44. Eat meat: Yes.
45. Date: Hmmmm.. if he's special to me, why not?
46. Sex: Femme
47. Eat sushi: Yuck. I don't eat Japanese food.
48. Bike: Uhh I often stumble whenever I try to, so I don't think I like it that much.
49. Hot or Cold: Hot. Love the Beach!
50. Lace or Satin: Satin. It's more comfy.
51. Blue or Red: BOTH. Blue, cos it's my favorite. Red, cos I'm a Maroon.
52. New or Old: Old. Nothing beats the classic.
53. Rain or Snow: Snow. Never held one though.
55. Wool or Cotton: Cotton.
56. Rose or Daisy: Rose =)
57. Private school or public school: since i'm going to UP, i'd choose Public.
58. Plain milk or chocolate milk: Plain milk. Yummy!
59. Celsius or Fahrenheit: Fahrenheit! Sounds perfume to me :)
60. Spring or Fall: Fall. An Autumn-In-New-York-inspired atmosphere.
61. Math or Art: MATH! =) My forte.
62. One pillow or two: As many as possible? But I think I can do with 2.
63. Dogs or Cats: Dogs!
64. Adidas or Nike: Nike
65. Coke or Pepsi: Coke
66. Oranges or Apple: Oranges!
67. Deaf or Blind: Deaf cos I wanna appreciate beauty. I'd rather be normal, though.
68. Pool or hot tub: Pool! A jacuzzi would do, too.
69. Blonde or Brunette: Brunette. Am a proud brunette.
70. Guys or Girls: Girls, cos we rule. Guys add a bit spice, though.
71. Tall or short: Tall. I am tall.
72. TV or Radio: TV cos it keeps me up all night.
Personal Stand on...
73. Homosexuality: Nah uh. I'm straight.
74. Brand names: Sorry, but I'm quite brand conscious. I'm controlling myself not to, though.
75. Abortion: You FOCKER! Get a life. Don't you know that i'm aspiring to be an Obstetrician Gynecologist?
76. Religion: We only have one God. Religion doesn't matter. Except the cults and stuff.
77. Animal Rights: Of course they have to have their own rights! We humans do, so might as well give them what they deserve.
78. Love at first sight: Slight. But it's plain superficiality. In some cases, it works though.
79. God: God. The way, the truth and the light. He died for us on the cross. God made everything possible when everything seems hopeless. God is my life. He gave me everything I ever needed.
80. Aliens: Nyahahah. I'm scared!
81. Horoscopes: Tsss.. We are in control of our own lives.
82. Heaven: Heaven is seeing God face to face. But being with the one you love? It's like heaven on earth.
83. Hell: Hell is the price you pay for doing wrong things - those that show ungratefulness to the Lord and who never repented nor asked for forgiveness.
84. Reincarnation: Associated to Hinduism. I don't believe it.
85. Transvestites: The male who adopts the behavior of the opposite sex for emotional and sexual gratification? Yuck.
86. Boy Bands: Some of them are cool. Girl bands rule! Nyahahaha. I'm a feminist.
87. Rap: Not much.
88. 80's music: Hehehe. Cool kaya!
89. Punk: No!
90. Whats the prettiest instrument(s): For me, it's violin. But since I don't know how to play it, I'd have to settle for the piano.
91. Whats the prettiest part of the body?: Eyes. What the lips hide, the eyes reveal.
92. Biggest fault: The biggest fault I've ever done to the most important person in my life is not admitting my true feelings for him.
93. Biggest fears: Repeating the BIGGEST FAULT, again. And eventually, losing him.
94. Do you live in the moment?: I live the present moment. But I often reminisce about the past. And worry a little about the future.
95. Do you care about looks?: Sometimes. But when it comes to loving, I don't really care how he looks like. I go beyond superficiality.
96. Do you like your handwriting?: Yes I do. Some people love it too.
97. Obsession: Toffee (yung candy) nyahahah. Ice Monster. Boracay. Sunlight. Waves. Water. Bombshells. Bora Babes. Mom. God =)
98. Looking forward to: Spending time with those whom I love. Like going out with my mom, the barkada, the bombshells, my friends. Di nako umaasang aalis pa kame ulet ni ano noh. And of course, college!
99. Favorite weather: Somewhere between Sunny and Rainy? Labo!
100. Do you ever wish you were somebody else?: Sometimes, I do. But there's this thing in me that keeps me proud of who I am, not wanting to be someone else. So I guess I'm contented.
Happy 17th Birthday, Joyce Bobiles!
Happy 18th Birthday, Miguel Hidalgo!
29th of April, 2004
I had a strange dream. I dunno why it felt so real, that I didn't want to wake up. But I have to. And so I did. I thought it wasn't just a dream. It's an illusion. I would've been the happiest girl if it did happen. Too bad it didn't.
Oh c'mon, let's snap back to reality.
Man, the truth is... I unintentionally got what I really wanted, not to mention more than what I came for. And I'm ever grateful, Lord! (I know you're reading this... I owe everything to you...)
I've uploaded the Bora Pics. Dayyyim, they were really good. Great, I should say.
*sighs*
I'll miss the white sand, the blue beach, the talips, the diving lessons, the snorkelling, the grilled cheese sandwich, the mango and strawberry shake, the Korean boy, the French guy, "The Hammock To Remember" starring Cat Maniego and Laqui de los Santos, the Russian porn stars, the Malaysian gays, the Stalkish, D'Mall D'Boracay, the Ship, all the walks, chats, inumans, night-outs, dance moves, showers, alarms, pedicabs, "Oh My God Four", "Zat iz not pozibol", my self quoted "I love him, I really do! Dayyyyyim!", the people, the Bora Babes. Thanks guys, I had more than just a BLAST. I had almost everything I asked for. And I could not ask for more... So now, I dedicate this post to the following who made my one week Bora escapade possible:
First is God, who really made me happy, and gave me a chance to enjoy.
To my Mom, who supported me all the way, financially most especially.
To the Jimenez's, who were very accomodating and generous enough to give us shelter and food.
To my Bobs, my Dagul, my Doctora and "parehas-talaga-tayo-buddy", I'll miss our kulitans.
To my Tuesday and kapatid ni Bobs who was oh so fond of calling me Ate Glow. I'll miss the way you wake me up, pull my blanky and say "Kain tayo, nagugutom ako!"
To my Gurliegurl, Ai-ai, Arnelli, Mahal and Bestfriend ni Botangs who assisted me when I was drunk, and was very gentle to me when I was crying the whole Saturday night. Thanks for understanding.
To Cahti, Mura, Botangs, Inuts, who stayed up late at night to chat with me, hammocked the night away, s***** when full cos she can't burp, talked to the French guy, stalked the Korean boy with me, did sweet things behind my back *awww* and got TORPE with Laqui boy for which reason I don't seem to know. I remember you told me this:
Cat : I'm giving you my blessing.
Mica: Huh? Why?
Cat : Cos if I don't, I don't think you'd be happy with anyone else.
Mica: Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..... Thanks!
That was the sweetest thing you did for me, hunnie. I'll never forget that.
Lastly, the guy out there who has contributed to much of my bliss. Who asked for a second chance, when in fact everything turned out to be my fault. Who made me happy just by a message from him everyday. Whom I've wronged many times. Who wanted me to stay. And I will, wholeheartedly. Whom I think is my one true love, and I intend to keep it that way. Gawwwwwd, please don't read this. Lalaki na ulo mo nyan eh. But in case you did, take this as an assurance, not as an egobooster.
@
2:23 AM
...not by the Still Standing after 15 Shots, but by the Shark Attack served at Summer Place. Take note, it was a combination of 16 other drinks, which makes it worse than the former. And you know how much i drank? More than 5 glasses. Man, that wasn't a shot glass. Twas one of those oh-so-B-I-G glasses from Summer Place. I thought I was drinking GinPom the whole time. But I was wrong. Too bad, I dint even care to ask. Bull, twas my bad.
Dayyim, that was like a total pain in the ass. Imagine me sleeping the whole day after the incident. That was really horrible. But I'm glad I got drunk. Cos if not for that, I wouldn't have told someone how special he is to me. Hey you, I wish you were here with me. Really...
And I'm bloody sorry for making you feel that way. I hope we could start all over again. You know what made me really silly? It's realizing that all this time, I was the one who hurt you badly. Lemmie make up for everything. You don't know how much you mean to me. In case you wanna know, I want to reiterate that you're my happiness. You gotta trust me on this one. :P
This time, I'm keepin it real. :D
Belated Happy Birthday to Anj Santos! 26th of April, 2004
Oh Pixie Chick! Am sorry I we dint make it to your actual birthday. But we're making up for it on your birthday bash this friday! Am like so excited!!! Amishoooooooooooooooh :P
Happy 18th Birthday, Kathy Diestro! 27th of April, 2004
Qt coz, you've come a long way. You're now a certified ADULT.
Oh guys, lemmie tell you something. I got into UP DILIMAN-BS Biology. I think Imma go straight to Med School. Again, wish me luck.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
Hei guys, just want you to know that I got here safely. :) I miss y'all... But I miss my Mom the most... They're all in Bataan right now, at my Lolo's Resthouse... The first outing I've ever missed... *sighs* I'll make up for it next year, I promise! :P
You may find this quite weird, blogging in Bora instead of frolicking in the beach. But heck, I'm all blackenese so I want to avoid the sun a bit. Hehehe... Just kidding! I went here to get a decent tan!!! :P
Dang! I'm staying here til the 29th, but it seems like all the people I know are leaving either today or tomorrow, worse is that most of them left Bora even before we came. Good thing we saw Dan Du and Sir Jay (whooops, Jay lang pala) before they left for Manila. Too bad we didn't get to see Rammy de Claro, Boom Bondoc, Alex Sy and company. They were here, though. Guess they left Bora on the same day we arrived. We met up with Andrew Javellana, his brother slash my twin JR, and Omar on Thursday night. We were supposed to drink last night, but we settled for a pitcher of Margherita courtesy of Xan Jimenez's dad. Tito, thanks a lot! And lemmie thank the Jimenez's for giving us a BLAST. They like paid for almost everything, except the food and fare. We'll forever be grateful!!! Surprisingly, my former schoolmate Laqui de los Santos and his family checked in the same resort we're staying at right now. Talk about coincidence, eh? Lastly, we were with Ralph de Jesus a while ago. Hmmm, seems like this cutie's got nothing much to do so he decided to pay a visit.
Guys, wish me luck. I guess tonight's THE NIGHT.
Im going to try the STILL STANDING AFTER 15, at Cocomangas. Following the footsteps of, Dods Lim, Boom Guevara, Wacky Galang, Dan Du, Caloy Creencia, and Toffee Rodriguez, whose names were proudly posted in the walls of Cocomangas.
Pfffffft, makaya ko kaya??? Pagdasal niyo ako...
Anyway, today ain't as good as the past few days. Actually, I cried my heart out - figuratively. I can't stop my tears from falling. This has got something to do with my parents, and my upcoming Boracay trip. Imagine me penniless on that island, with only around a thousand friggin bucks to spend. Dayyyyim, that sucks! It's as if I don't deserve a vacation like this. I remember what I did last year, when I got myself all fucked up with review classes and SEP. Tssss... I guess now's the right time to have a break.
IT'S PAYBACK TIME...
Oh, and I've seen the DVD copy of Love Actually I bought yesterday. It's nice. But nice is too dull, lemmie use the word marvelous. Hugh Grant rocked my ass off the chair. He's charming! *winks* I think I'm gonna be a huge supporter of pirated DVD's from now on. *evil grin*
I'll be off to Bora tomorrow. Be stayin there til the 28th, so I'll probably be back on the 29th. Wish me luck, guys. *with crossed fingers*
Wish me luck on everything - from budgeting to boy hunting! :P *im goin back to my old self again - tan, as usual!*
I just bought my snacks for tomorrow's trip. Hope I could eat `em all now! :P
I'm fuckin hungry. Haven't had a complete meal since last night. *mica's on a diet, mica's on a diet, mica's on a diet* Whoops, someone's gonna kill me for not eating on time. Hope he doesn't get to read this post! Hihihi...
*flashes another evil grin*
Today
Called the UP Office of the College Secretary for information about the APE.
At 1p, went to SPUQ to get a transcript and my High School ID Card.
Caught by Ms. Tan Llanos so I had to stay to check the Pauleen.
Edited a LOT. Dayyyyyyyyim!
Left SPUQ at 4p.
Met up with Pat Chua and Dods Lim at the Theatre Mall.
Along came Macu Cinco and Cat Maniego.
Had the Batangas pics developed at Kameraworld.
Bought beach slippers, a pair of earrings, and a DVD copy of the movie Love Actually. My first time to buy a pirated DVD copy! :P
Dined at Chili's with Dods, Pat and Macu. Too bad Cat didn't get to have her share of Dods' treat. Hey Dods, thanks! We owe a lot to you! :P
Walked from Chili's to First Quadrant.
Made blurbs about love and life. Senti mode - ON. Yaay! :P
Made it to the homebase at 9:30p.
Oh, and I've uploaded the pics we had a while ago here.
Pffffft. YOU. I MISS YOU!
e****(4/17/04 10:33:56 PM): ikaw yun...im sure. hehe! tinanong ko eh. grabeh. ako yung naging sobrang excited nung sinabi sa akin ni ****. haha! i had to resist the urge to talk to ***** myself sa sobrang tuwa ko. hehe! :x
He's really really confusing me right now. I don't want to exaggerate things moreover, give meaning to those stuff I've heard recently. I kept on telling myself "Maybe he's just giving me the wrong signals." or "Maybe I've become a little too assumptive."
Hell, I don't want to ask him "What's the score between us?" when in truth, there really was no score at all and the us I'm pertaining to never existed.
Tsssss... If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? I've never been this mushy. My fear? You coming back to me when I'm completely over you. I want to move on, but I can't. I can't leave my feelings and lie to myself. I still am hoping that one day, you'd win my heart back, keep it safe and never let go. I know that what I'm askin for is too much. In case, you'll need me in your life once again, I'd still say yes to you - I promise I will if it's not too late.
They say that you find a person's worth when he's gone. That almost happened to me. Good thing I made up for everything I could ever make up for before it's too late. I know it's never too late to spend time with Pat. But the least I can do is to join the trip with the kada, and have a whale of a time.
Pat Chuellelim,
I'll miss you badly. I can't imagine how subtle I was to you before you had the guts to tell me this : "Sa buong barkada, ikaw na lang di ko pa nakaka-one-on-one." That bothered me so much, and since then, I've had efforts of getting closer to know you better. I hope you noticed that. I'll never forget our bonding moments. All those singing and stuff we did before the ball. The conversations we've had about guys, which were very rare though. The DODGE car you really really wanted. You know what I mean. =) Your stories about Joel. Your kakikayan. And of course, the things we did during our 2-day stay in Batangas, 'til the last chat we had at Gale. I hope you could still make it to your date, *whooops* I mean our date with you-know-who. Be safe, Pat. I hope I got your address right :
Blk. 267 #02-210 Bukit Batok East Ave. 4 Singapore 650267.
Try to keep us updated, okay? "HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS ARE FRIENDS FOREVER."
`Mica Gabrielli
I've uploaded my Second PBase Account with our Batangas Pics.
Lemmie give you a jist of what we had this weekend.
Day 1
Macu Cinco fetched me at my house at 9:30a, then we headed off to Red Ribbon.
Arrived at Red Ribbon at around 10a, or earlier. Pat Chua was the earliest, though.
We had our breakfast there. I pigged out on Choco Chip Cookies. *yummy*
Jamie Mangalindan arrived shortly.
Joyce Bobiles was an hour late. Hmmm, seems like the organizer was the one who came late.
We were fetched by the driver at around 11:30a. Went to Aiza Carlos' place, and asked permission from her parents. We rode on Mandee's Expedition.
Dropped by at Petron-South Luzon Expressway to buy some food, and pee a little.
We had one hell of a roadtrip, talking about random stuff - all of which were sensible. For instance, we passed by a flier of FPJ, consequently we talked about Politics. We saw a nice house, then we talked about mansions. Hahaha, that was cool.
Arrived at Taysan,Batangas at 3:30p, ate merienda, and went to the resort right after.
Dropped our luggages at the Mediterranean House which was really cozy and comfy.
Put on our swimsuits then *voila* hurriedly splashed into the water.
Ate chicharon, fries and drank Sprite by the pool side.
Dried ourselves up, then dressed up for dinner.
Had our POT SESSIONS. Hahaha. Smoked our lungs out in front of Ate Joy and Kuya Unyod. *evil grin*
Drank red wine. :P Sang the night away at the Recreational Area. Here, we spent 2 hours singing songs like : I'm A Barbie Girl, I Think I'm In Love, Angel of Mine (hmmm.. makes me wonder.. whose song is it anyway?), Maybe, Heaven, Crush, Crazy For You, Part of Your World, You're Still the One, Always Be My Baby, I Will Survive (sung by Me,Joyce,Mandee), the list goes on...
Macu, Jamie, Pat and I prepared for bedtime. While the rest swam in the pool.
They got up at past 12 midnight, then took a bath shortly.
We're all set for bedtime, but we've decided to have an icebreaker.
Our eyelids were really heavy at around 2a, so we called it a day.
Day 2
Ate Avic rang our doorbell at 8a, which ended all our dreams and nightmares.
Had our breakfast at 8:30a.
Swam again at 9a. We really had a great time when we acted out as kids. We played dugong-dugungan, dugong-dugong-marina-marina
I took a bath early, then slept a bit. Woke up at 1p, and had lunch.
We went back to Dagatan, supported Mandee on her SK Projects, ate ISAW and ice cream, then I slept again while they were feasting on mangoes and watching tv. I am such a dopey. hahaha. :P
Woke up at 5p, just in time for our goodbyes. =(
Too bad, Mandee can't go back to Manila. We thanked Mandee's family, especially her dad, for the great treat they gave us.
Kuya Santi drove us back, and dropped us off at Gale where we were supposed to have our pics developed at 9p. Oh, and we stopped to buy some goodies and pasalubong; and we stopped again to buy food at 7/11. Talk about another road trip, eh?
Aiza and Joyce went ahead, while Pat, Jamie, Macu and I stayed at Greenwich because all the other restos were either occupied or closed. I gave Pat a pic with a dedication written at the back.
Pat's Mom arrived at 10p and we all went home safe and sound.
Truly unforgettable... I'll miss the INFINITUM... I wish the others were there to enjoy the trip with us...
As I logged back in YM, I got an offline message from a friend:
e****(4/17/04 7:36:41 AM): mica!!! may nalaman ako...
e****(4/17/04 7:36:54 AM): haha...sabi ni ***** kay **** na...
e****(4/17/04 7:36:56 AM):
e****(4/17/04 7:36:57 AM):
e****(4/17/04 7:36:57 AM):
e****(4/17/04 7:37:03 AM): he misses you.
e****(4/17/04 7:37:06 AM): :x
THE FEELING IS PERFECT IN ITS TRUEST SENSE... ***bliss***
Okay guys, I'm going with you. Due to insistent infinitum demand, I've decided to go with my barkada on their, I mean, our trip to Batangas. I'll be leaving in a while, and Tito, Mandee's Dad, is going to fetch us at Red Ribbon, E. Rodriguez @ 10am sharp. Hopefully, seven of us - Mandee Comia, Macu Cinco, Joyce Bobiles, Jamie Mangalindan, Aiza Carlos and Pat Chua will be goin. Oh, I think I failed to mention myself! ;p This is sort of a farewell party for Pat, since she's leaving on the 20th. Awwwwww Pat, I sure am going to miss you. We're all going to miss you. Too bad, Jenny Gonzales, Cat Maniego, Liz Garcia, Monina Arcellana and Fleur Galeno couldn't make it. Jenny's busy campaigning for her uncle, Cat's going to her grandpa's birthday party, Liz's taking an exam today, Fleur's at Bacolod right now, and I don't know why Monina couldn't make it. "Hmmmm...Monmon tinamad na naman!!!" Infinitum, I miss y'all...
After dropping them off to their "LOVE NEST", I've decided to visit my "not-seeing-her-for-eighteen-days-sucks-big-time" friend, Anj Santos, who's been jealous of this blog for quite some time. Sorry Anj, but I know you'll get this feeling too by the time you sign up for a blog. Sheesh, good thing I paid a visit, cos I've been missing a lot of updates from her. Anj, I'm so happy for you. About hmmmmmm... You know what I mean. Oh, and did I mention that we had a heart to heart talk about some things that are common to us right now. Like moving out, changing places, adjusting, some college stuff, et al. Also, we're planning to take up advanced courses; like the Credit by Examination Program offered in Ateneo, which is tantamount to the Advance Placement Examination offered in UP. We feasted on fries and sampaloc. *yummy*
He texted and, believe it or not, asked me when will I be off to Bora. Sad to say, we won't be able to see each other. He's going back to Manila on the 20th, while I'll be leaving for Bora on the 21st. What a bad sched I have. Am I jinxed???
And of course, fotosesh will never be taken for granted. Click here to view photos.
Before going home, I dropped by at Cat Maniego's place to give my payment for our Bora Getaway. Scored a homerun at 7p, which was pretty early for a girl like me. You know what I mean.
Darn, he texted a quote again. What seems to be the problem with him... or am I just makin a big deal out of his messages?
"You think I'm strong don't you? Well though I seem to be tough... I'm afraid of one thing... It's realizing that I've lost the person who I gather strength from... So don't ever go... I'm not that strong..."
My response? Sort of cold, and subtle.
"Thanks! Pero la na ako quotes eh... Goodnight!"
Look who's talking now. Man, you left me. Don't you think it's more realistic for me to send or forward that quote to you???... And not only that, it was followed by a message tike this:
"Okay goodnight... I Miss You... =)"
What the f***. No matter how hard I try, I can't get over the fact that all this time, IT'S ALWAYS BEEN YOU.
/me gets mushy, again!!! --->That's a big no-no!
At this moment, I want to go to Bora, walk up to him and say:
"Let's stop this na. Can't you get it? I'm trying to get over you."
It sucks again, mahhhn... BIG TIME!!!
Before I say goodnight to y'all, just wanna greet my kabarkada:
Happy 16th Month, Liz Garcia and Micro Bunyi! 15th of April, 2004
You go girl! Micro, I know you're taking good care of Lissy. Thanks, man... Lissy, good luck in your upcoming exams. God Bless you both!
AC Irasusta called me up to ask me if I have plans of buying a condo along Katipunan Ave. That was the original plan. But it seems that my dad's still undecided about it. Oh c'mon, gimme a break dad. I want to live alone, INDEPENDENTLY. Lemmie clear things up a bit, when I say INDEPENDENTLY, I mean living all by myself in my own condo, provided that they support me financially. *evil grin* Call me a brat, but I think I deserve to live alone. Living all by myself, entails freedom from all of my Mom's reminders. If there's one thing I'd hate hearing, that'd be those non-terminating reminders like "Mica, do this. Mica, do that. Mica, study your lessons. Mica, blah blah blah." Oh c'mon, I'm all grown up now. I just want to realize things by myself, then take the initiative to do what I ought to, knowing that it is the right thing to do.
But, I'd have to consider my mom's feelings - being apart from her only daughter, not to mention, only child, for the first time is tough. On second thought, she thinks of it as an opportunity for me to grow up and be more matured (that includes being money-wise). I'll miss my mom too. But I know I have to do this for my future. And I know for a fact that I excel, whenever I am not urged, when I am least disturbed. I excel when my conscience triggers me to cut the crap, and get the right things going. When my mind and body unites in doing one aim, one goal. When I prefer to do things in my own free will, in my own time.
It sucks, dude...big time.
Happy 7th Month, Aiza Carlos and Joel Concepcion! 14th of April, 2004
Slow down, stay strong, hold on, make things work out, make things happen. Good luck to you guys, more power, and God Bless!
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5:17 AM
I woke up late again, and today was not an exemption. This day marked the last distribution of my last report card in my last year of high school. Imagine 10 long months of "hardwork", and how you get paid for it is through this thin sheet of parchment which seems hell to those who never gave a damn about schoolwork. Well, I can definitely say that things ran out smoothly, if not perfect enough. I obviously was one of those who effortlessly graduated, not because the lessons were easy (heck, they were hard), but because I took things too lightly. Honestly, my head began to grow even bigger ever since the UPCAT and ACET results were released. The mere thought of passing made my ego boost totally. I used to say things like : "Who needs these grades anyway? I've got a college." and "Why study when I know that I have a future. I have a college. Fail me now, but I still won't give a damn." Call me braggart, but hell, that's the truth.
The moment of truth has come. As I entered the SPCQ, now SPUQ campus, I felt something really unusual, something really really bad. So I told my mom:
Mica: Mommy, diba UP naman na ako?
Mom: Oo nga. Baket?
Mica: Mommy, diba di naman na kailangan ung grades. Tsaka di na importante yun. Maganda naman school ko diba?
Mom: Parang hinahanda mo na ako ah. Mababa ba grades mo?
Mica: Oo naman. Bakit, nakita mo ba akong nag-aral?
Mom: Hahahahah. Oo nga, puro chat na lang inatupag mo!
Mica: Hahahahah. Oo nga, kaya ako nangangamote eh!
Mom and I went to the faculty room to get my card from Ms. Caabay, late, as usual. Bumped into Ms. Nicolas and she said "Ang aga namang kumuha ng card nitong babaitang to!".
*tadadada*
Average : 89.92
Not bad, eh? Not bad at all. After all those tardy and absent slips, I still managed to get that grade. Too bad, I wasn't able to make it to the honor's list. Damn you! Whoever you are! It's only you who gave me the first grade below 85 in my entire high school life. Well, who cares, at least I got into a decent, not to mention, prestigious university.
I got my graduation pics. Yipee! :D
Texted Daryl Tarnate, Anj Santos, Cat Maniego and Mela Dua. Only two of them made it to Cat's house: Da and Cat, of course. So we chilled out, and made the most out of the given time. Got my diet pills from Cat. Went to Greenhills to check out tiangge stuff. Pigged out on McDonald's. Da and I tried the new Strawberry-Banana flavor, while Cat settled for an Oreo McFlurry. *yummy* Bought an Acne soap, to cure my zits. Purchased a CD-ROM for my Digicam. Went back to Cat's house. Oh, and Cat made a gorgeous wallpaper for me. Dayyyim Cat, you're a genius! Thanks a million! *big hug*
Arrived at 10p. Penniless. *sighs*
Before I end this post, I'd just like to greet someone who used to be very special to me:
Happy 18th Birthday, Toffee Rodriguez! 13th of April, 2004
Hey you! We may not be as close as we were before. May not go out as often as we used to. May not text each other that frequent. And, may forget about everything past high school. I just want you to know, that you meant so much to me, and in that short span of time, you've made me really happy. Thanks for everything! I'll never forget you. Wherever you are now, and whatever path you take, I wish you happiness. God Bless!
Slept at 3a, then woke up at 11a. That's quite an improvement, eh?
Anj Santos texted to cancel our gimmick.
Called Mandee Comia, and decided to go with her.
Read Cosmopolitan's April 2004 Issue.
Mandee called and told me they're at greenhills already.
Hurriedly took a bath at 1:30p. Left the house at 2p. *whew*
Met up with Mandee Comia and Joyce Bobiles at Theatre Mall.
Bought a decent swimsuit for our Batangas Trip.
Failed to eat ICE MONSTER!!! *whimpers*
Wearing our swimsuits, we had photo sessions using my Digicam.
Mandee and I swore not to eat this week, to keep our tummies flat.
Got home at exactly 6p.
I just love it here in Manila. I missed mIRC, YM, and of course, I missed BLOGging in the wee hours of the night! Needless to say this, I missed my friends the most - both the Bombshells and the Infinitum.
Just when I thought that it'd be hopeless for me to have a camera...
*drumrolls*
I got my Digicam. Uhh, a bit smaller than the 1st Digicam I had. The perfect Easter gift for me, eh? :P
Today
Slept at 3a. Woke up at 11a.
Just in time for our clan reunion.
Had brunch at 2p. Ate a LOT.
Prepared the eggs for the easter egg hunt.
Hosted the games.
Went to visit our land.
Dropped by at my cousin's place.
Chatted with my parents. Talked about my future.
Dad drove us back to Manila, then left for Cavite.
Yes, I missed one thing of utmost importance.
I failed to attend the Easter Mass - every benign Christian's obligation.
Lord, I know that you've been so good to me, and this is how I repayed you for everything you did. So I'm saying sorry. Punish me now, but please, not by making my love life miserable. Because that's the reason why I'm in pain right now. Please forgive me. *sniffs*
Texted with my new found friend, Alvin Reyes til 2a.
Woke up at 2p.
Worse sleeping habit, eh? Dayyyyim!
Took a bath, then slept again. *snores*
Woke up at 5p, just in time for the last supper mass at 6p.
Mandee Comia called me up to inform me about the Batangas Trip.
...This lass is mad at me. I'm sorry Mandz, but please let me explain. Don't believe the entire thing that she said. That was PARTLY but not ENTIRELY true. I miss you and you just don't know how much I value our friendship.
Celebrated the mass with cousin, Vada Senatin, and my oh-so-religious-grannies.
Pigged out on Shakey's with my cousin. Fasting and abstinence, eh?
Visited my closest cousin, Kathy Diestro, only to find out that she's left for Tarlac.
Went to Vada's house and watched The Tale of Two Sisters on VCD.
*beep* *beep*
Nelia Peralta: Ei nakapagpreenlist na po ako, pero di ko maintindihan ung pre-enlistment steps. Text mo ko pag nakapagpre-enlist ka na ha?
Gawwwwwwwd!!! This is the moment I've long been waiting for.
Logged in to http://freshman.up.edu.ph
And what horrified me was this:
HTTP Status 500 -
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
type Exception report
message
description The server encountered an internal error () that prevented it from fulfilling this request.
Dayyyyyyim!!! Why can't I log in? *sniffs*
Then I realized that my student #'s last digit is an odd number, meaning, I have to preenlist tomorrow, 9th of April 2004.
Well, I can't blame them for being so organized. Odd digits on odd dates.
Hrmpf!!! *sniffs*
I have to wait, wait and wait.
Am currently chatting with Anj Santos and Daryl Tarnate.
I miss the bombshells.
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
Its 1pm and I've never been this lame.
Made an About Me.
Chatted with Jenny Gonzales, Monina Arcellana, and Cat Maniego.
Found out that they were planning a Batangas trip, without even informing me.
Thank you, guys.*forced smile*
I know I've done a lot to hurt the barkada. But please, don't try to get rid of me in this way. If you don't want me to go, then it's fine with me. Just don't try to do things behind my back.
Mom texted, and ordered me to go back to the province, all by myself.
So I have to leave. Im'ma try to use my cousin's PC to update this blog.
I'd have to leave you with this...
Things to do this summer:
+Pre-enlist in UP Diliman before going to Bora.
+Save money for Bora.
+Go to Bora.
++Find a summer fling. (optional) naaaah I'm just kidding.
++Get a tan line. And a henna tattoo. :)
++Give myself a break. Relax.
+Find a new house along Katipunan Ave.
+Buy new Lacoste Sneakers.
+Shop. Shop. Shop with Anj Santos.
+Shop with my Mom. Im'ma buy some "college stuff".
+Have my **** ******.
+Get over that heartbreaker!!!
Just when I thought I could stand on my own.
It's the 7th of April. It does not ring a bell to you, does it? But it works for me.
Lemmie tell you what happened last year, 7th of April, 2003.
-=flashback=-
+Accomplice : Cat Maniego
+Venue : Robinson's Galleria - As always.
+Time : Probably, after lunch.
+What : Movietrip
...Due to depression, Cat and I decided to have a so-called "adult adventure". Dressed up like adults, talked like adults and acted like adults, for one reason... Had to watch The Gangs of New York, an R-18n film, that is. Everything went right, we purchased the tickets without a word from the clerk, nor an interrogation from the staff.*flashes an evil grin* Luckily, we had ample time to roam around and shop a bit. Just as we entered the SUN Cellular shop, which was newly launched then, my fone beeped.
*beep* *beep*
Unknown Number : +63917*******
Msg : Hi this is ******, from the soiree.
Oh my. He texted. Okay, okay. Lemmie give you a situation:
I used to like this guy. He dumped me when he realized we're better off as friends. He chose this girl over me. But this girl, kept on ignoring the guy i like because she likes another guy, who happened to be the same guy texting me then. *If you were in my place, what would you feel? how would you react?*
WTF! Confusions, confusions, confusions...
I guess I reacted positively. Yes, it may have scared the hell out of me. But I'm lucky to have met him. If not for that message, I would have been in complete emptiness right now. *sighs*
let's snap back to reality
It's undeniable. It's incontestable. I miss him badly. So I rang him up, assuming that he's asleep right now, coz it's way past his bedtime.
+63917*******
07.04.2004
02:32:56am
To my surprise, he did the same thing.
1 missed call
07.04.2004
02:33:25am
WTF! What the f***...
I came up with only one conclusion.
The 7th of April never fails to bring the most unforeseen events in my life. *winks*
And what amazed me the most was this blog.. *winks* I've dreamt of this blog for nights, and to my surprise. Voila! It's officially my blog. Thanks to the Computer Genius. Alds Baleva, if you're reading this. Thanks-a-million!
What I did today:
+Woke up at 11a.
+Took a bath.
+Ate ice cream.
+Pigged out at our backyard. We had salted fish for lunch. Uh it's part of our holy week tradition. *yummy*
+Afternoon siesta.
+Watched tv.
+Dressed up, and waited for my Unc to pick us up.
+Unc arrived at 630p. Headed off to greenhills.
+Arrived at 830p. All shops closed. *sniffs* But hey, I still got my Mango Ice. *winks*
+Called Anj Santos.
Mica: Pixie. What's uHHHHp?
Anj: What's uHHHHp?
Mica: Dito ko greenhills!!! ICE MONSTER!
Anj: Nagbalik ka na?
Mica: Nde. Inutusan lang ako bumili.
Anj: Ahhh. Balik ka na dito dame ko ikkwento sayo! ;)
Okay okay. So how can i resist my beloved pixie?
Well, I can say that Anj Santos is irresistible. Right pixie? I can't say no to this chic. The same goes with Cat Maniego and Daryl Tarnate. Dolly and Midori, respectively. I love my bombshells. I miss you guys. *bombshell hug*
Happy Birthday Fleur Galeno! 6th of April, 2004
And about my barkada, I miss them just the same.
Infinitum, if y'all readin this, I'm sorry for all my shortcomings. I know that I've offended you in so many ways. Aiza, Cat, Fleur, Jamie, Jenny, Joyce, Liz, Macu, Mandee, Monina, Pat... I'm dreadfully sorry. *sighs*
Anj!!! Read this. In case you haven't noticed, Id like to tell you that I'm back. Because of you. *grins*
It's around 2a. And I doth nothin but chat, and type. My conscience is bothering me a bit. I kept on askin the oh-so-kind-computer-god to edit my blog. Yeah, but he claims that he's not irritated a bit. Alds, I owe a lot to you. You want an IM? *angelic grin*
My crush macked me through YM! *giggles*
*whimpers*
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